Things are crazy around here!!

While in the middle of moving boxes I received a call from my Aunt up north. Turns out that they had been trying to reach me for a week because my Mom is in a coma! So I high tailed it up there and got the scoop.

I have to say that "they" should warn you before you go in if you've never seen a "real" coma. It is not what most people think of. If you're like me you think of a patient just lying there in bed looking like they are sleeping. Sure you expect tubes and stuff, but that's it.

While a "medically induced" coma may look that way, I "real" one does not. My Mom is in a bed and yes there are tubes everywhere but! She looks nothing like she is sleeping. Her arms and legs are moving around (pretty wildly, they have to keep her strapped down) she also turns her head and makes faces like she is in pain. The worst part is that she opens her eyes and "looks" at you and will even smile and frown. I say that she does, but it isn't her. All this movement is just neuro-muscle reaction. It means nothing according to her dr. Now if she were doing a little more over and over a period of time that would be one thing, but she isn't.

She has been in this state in the hospital since the 30th of September. I flew up on the 7th of October and had to leave her there (in good hands but still) on the 14th. I was so glad to be home again and yet so sad to not be with her at the same time.

I spoke with the nurse this morning (like every morning) and learned that Mom is running another low grade fever for no apparent reason. The nurse said (off the record) that it could be her brain causing the fever. I will try to spend some time today researching what that all means. The nurse also said that today they will be adding a "PMV" to Mom's traq to see if she will talk. Why they think she would talk when she isn't even "there" is beyond me, but it isn't going to hurt the situation so I won't argue.

I want to beg all og blogland to please get your papers in order. You NEED a living will and you NEED a paper stating who you want to have Power of Attorney if something happens to you. Telling loved ones is not enough because they will second guess themselves and what you wanted in the heat of the moment. I know it can be spendy, but it isn't for you so much as it is for they family left to deal with the tragedy. Even people who know it can happen to them don't really THINK that it will.

Also, if you aren't already, get right with God. I don't know how people who do not have Him in their lives get through. Knowing that my Mom will go to heaven some day is also a great relief at this time. If things do get worse, I know I'll see her again. Much love and many blessings to you.


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